Sensorial Crisis In The Midnight

 Samuel was waking up and crying didn't want to eat because of his constant crying then my mother came with something for him but he was crying out loud inconsolably I tried to help but I was also sleepy everyone knows when I wake up this way I wake up really mad but my mom was so implacable she just tells at me with offensive words and that causes me sensorial crisis like "meltdown" and "shutdown" now who is crying inconsolably is me because nobody cares about it only God care about my sensorial crisis never left me I believe him for sure but who else would care when you have Autism spectrum symptoms like that while I was crying in the bathroom I was saying words like "I want to go home,I don't want to be here if I came here just for she yell at me so I prefer to go back home" like go back to Balneário Camboriú SC where my father he would never yell at me and is where I like to be at home feeling well there and where nobody else will be yelling at me at least for Samuel I hate to see him suffer this way what else can I do? 😢 No one is forced to see others suffer even if you have some kind of desease like Samuel's Hydrocephalus it seems like my mom doesn't care about my sensorial crisis or my own autism spectrum so what else can I do to show her that I also suffer and her offensive words are only destroying me inside